Well....

okay so I made a promise to myself... I did some research and I thought I had depression, so I talked to my counselor, and she officially diagnosed me with Depression... I promised myself that if I thought about committing suicide again, I would tell someone. So today I started thinking about it again... and I know that I won't actually commit suicide, just to be on the safe side, I kept my promise to myself and I told... <3 I tild my school counselor, and she is gonna talk to me tomorrow...   

Rachel's Challange

Today at school we had an assembly, it was so powerful and moving, I went to the one for parents at the High school earlier tonight too... I accept Rachel's challenge  <3 you can see what it is all about here: www.rachelschallange.org

another website I like is: www.facingus.com...
I keep a diary on there, and can track my mood. :)

I'm doing okay right now... 

I made a promise to myself, and I intent to keep it <3 

:( Its Almost His Birthday...

the 6th is the devils birthday... :(  I feel like i'm getting sick to my stomach just thinking about it.... the 6ht is tomorrow... My first day of health went ok... I can't concentrate in any of my classes though :(

But on the other side, looking back, I've come a long ways in a year... and I didn't realize that until now... I hope that next year I will have gone even farther... because I will live to see next year <3 I will not kill myself, I'm finally not having Suicidal thoughts again for the moment... which is good <3

Oh No....

Tomorrow we have health... this year we talk about the reproductive system, and Sex. and we have to put a condom on a banana... :'( I hope I get a good grade, it's gonna be so hard to pay attention... 


on the other hand Its October...I think the 7th is the Devils birthday...


It's been almost a year since I first told... 

I realize now that it wasn't my fault, what he did... but I still think it was..